For anyone that’s ever wanted John Darnielle to stare directly into your soul and sing to you “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas”. I am such a person, yet I have so many questions to ask the person editing this av club video like ‘why the extreme closeup?’ ‘why the fake snow?’ and ‘why are you so hilarious?’ Merry Christmas indeed. My final exam in 6 hours and then I’m drinking till I pass out. HOLIDAYS! (via AV Club)
And I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam
And no emotion that’s worth having could call my heart its home
My heart’s an autoclave
My heart’s an autoclave
I’m pretty sure I’ve never posted this up on here before, but if I have, oh well, John Darnielle’s always worth a repeat post. This is also one of the many reasons why I want to move to Seattle (to live beside a troll), and John oh John oh John.
“Don’t even worry about me guys, it’s fine. Haha, Seriously. Do what you all were going to do, I’ll just play my song, it doesn’t even matter”
I also once wrote this to a friend with this video embedded about a year and a half ago, and it both terrifies and calms me that I feel no different.
sweet child of mine,
everything embedded in us is muscle memory by now. that’s why we can resume every conversation at gun point if necessary. everything we love will always be loved because that was never a struggle, that was never why we needed to leave home. we left because needing to find something to love is different from not knowing. i knew even before i watched this that something like this would make my heart stop. its like, do you remember when we watched high fidelity for the first time and John Cusack said something along the lines of ‘what really matters is what you like, not what you are like.’ and we nodded along because we were children, and John Cusack was really Nick Hornby and Hugh Grant in About a Boy, and we are all Marcus’s with our weird hair and singy songs, and he grew up to be Tony Fuckin’ Stonem and isn’t it fucking weird how all the chips fall into place and how we were right about Everything. we always are.
It’s right or it’s wrong or its neither. Today it’s all of the above.
