as long as i have some water, a candle, a hardbackbook, an old piano, i’ll still be alive
Wonderful little short on the oldest piano repair shop in Paris (via The Fox is Black).
I think what i’ve been obsessing with in the past few weeks, especially with my own graduation coming up, is what kind of life I want to be living post-school. I am both the laziest and most hard working person I know. Which means, ultimately, I just want to find something to throw my life into. Which sounds violent, but truly, I want to be crushed by responsibilities and work. I want to be inspired. I want to be driven. I want to start paying my dues. I want to get on with it. I wish I was a better student, but I am not. The idea of schooling is appealing, but ultimately frustrating. I feel ineffectual and drained. I feel tied down to a not very sound lie. Mostly, I feel useless. But in 4 months time, that feeling will be replaced by apprehension and anxiety. Its going to be exhilarating. It’s going to be exhausting. It’s going to start to matter.
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